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Knock, knock, Princess Peach…
I really miss her the most when she’s not herself. When she’s trapped in her little castle. Did you know that when they created Peach, they said she should have blond hair, blue eyes, a rosy complexion, and be “stubborn, but cute”?
They predicted you very well.
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Don’t you know people write songs about girls like you?
You keep me up
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#honour (Taken with instagram)
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There’s something strange going on in my head that says if I were to get in a car right now, North Carolina is where I would end, and to your doorstep I would be bound…
It’s amazing how a girl like you could affect a guy like me…
I don’t think much about this blog anymore, I tend to be more in the moment these days than on my computer. I have my phone which keeps me connected to all the most important people, and I have a fairly active social life these days. I’m only ever behind this computer working on music these days. When I am on here, I have music in the background, shuffling itself around, and vibrating my ear drums.
Drums. Another thing that’s been occupying my time more, I’ve been actually working on becoming a better drummer. I stopped taking lessons so long ago, and just been getting by playing what I can for too long now, I need to be what I can be behind those wooden tubs.
I’m not particularly fond of Christmas, to be honest. I never knew why. Maybe I buy too many fucking gifts. Maybe I never really get what I want. Regardless of all of that, I am actually excited about Christmas this year, and it really does feel better to give than to receive. I would be totally okay if I didn’t get a single gift, because what I’m giving everyone is awesome, and I’m more than stoked to give it to them.
I don’t know where I stand with my interior anymore. My exterior is exactly what I want the world to see of me, and to be honest, I’m not faking who I am. I just know that there is more underneath and I can’t get it to the surface. I don’t know why, maybe I’m just too scared. Maybe it’s not ready yet.
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Getting my Christmas gift early…
For the first winter in a long time, I feel like I’m in a good place. There are still many things I’m fighting with, but I’ve never felt more relaxed or confident in a season I hate so much. This is by far the best gift I could ask for.
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Nothing like it.
We all have our flaws. My major one is getting more attached to something I shouldn’t.
I really liked what we had before my feelings got messy. I want to go back to that, and I feel like I already am. Yeah I have feelings for you, but I’m gonna tone them down and direct them just towards fun and less towards affection.
It took me too long to realize we had way more fun when no one knew a thing and we were being friends and hanging out. Forgive me for blurring lines a little too much.
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[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]
This is how I feel, so when you feel it’s because of you that I’m doing this, its not. I’m in a relationship that has come to a halt. It came to a halt in the summer of 2010, and I dragged in on afterwards when I should have taken the time to just move on and grow. Instead I’ve hurt someone I’ve loved along the way, and as the relationship that her and I created kept getting bigger, well lets just say, the bigger they are, the harder they fall.
Are you there
Putting all the words together
Painting your new masterpiece
Ocean air
Carrying reminders of that perfect pair
We use to be
Someday everything ends
Can we begin
Finding our way back before we’re too late
And lost in between
The truth and the dream
I’ve never been more ready to move on
Changing keys
Giving up on me to find familiar things
And try blending in
Know this please
I will not forget the sound of you and me
When we were friends
Someday everything ends
Can we begin
Finding our way back before we’re too late
And lost in between
The truth and the dream
I’ve never been more ready to move on
Bring walls down
Hear all my sound
Let me back in
Love me again
Bring walls down
Hear all my sound
Let me back in
Love me again
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I’m just such an idiot (Taken with instagram)
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Late night, not early morning
I can’t remember the last time I wrote something.
After what feels like being up for five straight days, I decided to take a few hours off for myself. Slept until 1 in the afternoon, stayed in bed just to shoot the shit. I started recording a very good local band in the evening, and I have just arrived home. 4:26 am.
Getting drunk on a weekday was always weird to me, but then again, at one time so was getting drunk in general. I was fairly drunk on Tuesday night, and very hungover the following morning. I was fortunate enough to spend the night with some close friends, and while the night was fairly shit-showish, it was still one of the best nights I’ve had in a long time. I paid for it in many ways the following day, with a constant raging headache, a trip downtown I didn’t want to take, and a person very upset that I didn’t call them the night before.
So much has happened since the last time I’ve written anything that to write it all now would be so convoluted and awful. The major event was realizing recently that I love my passion so much I put it in front of every single person in my life. And I told a major person in my life that to their face. Easily one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do, but I’d been dancing around it for the better part of six years, and it was only a matter of time until the truth about the hierarchy of priorities in my life would be put out in the open.
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There comes a day when you rectify who you are with who you wanna be with, and I can’t make the two things coexist
The Wonder Years - Don’t Let Me Cave In
Throughout 2011, tons of albums have been released that have made it to my top albums ever. This is one of them, and this line constantly rings in my head. In fact, this album is full of lines like this one that make me examine every bit of myself to further understand what really goes on in that fishbowl I call a head of mine.
